第七十章 美丽的错误
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钱小蕾听了默不作声,伸筷子一口一口地吃菜。过了老半天,她轻轻地道:“我是一个女人,我也要脸要面子的。告诉你可以,但你得先向我保证,这件事以后永远不要再提起了,你不可以告诉任何人,尤其是解琴,可以吗?”
我呆了一下,道:“为什么?”
钱小蕾一声苦笑,道:“你以为这件事很光荣吗?我苦苦隐瞒了这么多年,还不就是怕丢不起这个人?唐迁,你听了后,就当曾经做了个梦,一笑了之罢!”
我艰难地咽下一口唾沫,道:“你说罢,我答应你!”
钱小蕾放下筷子,抓起酒瓶又在两只杯子里倒满了酒。也不劝我,自己先一仰脖喝干了,然后叹息一声,道:“事情很简单,你喝醉了,我扶你到车上时,你把我当成了华菁菁。然后一男一女,该发生什么,你应该很明白了!”
虽然我早有心理准备,但听她亲口说出来,我仍是眼前一黑,脑袋里轰地一炸,几乎从座位上摔倒。
我扶住桌面,强自吸了一口气,还是把我的疑问说出来:“你为什么不反抗?为什么让我得逞?为什么不制止我?”
钱小蕾又是一声苦笑,道:“我没反抗吗?我不是咬得你嘴上鲜血淋淋?但你是个男人,我是个弱小女子,你用强的,我有什么办法?”
我刹那间全身被冷汗湿透,额头上黄豆般的汗水大滴大滴地往下滚,一种痛恨和痛苦,如毒蛇般噬咬着我的心。我从来都没有对自己这么失望,这么鄙视过。我觉得我活在了世上,真是亵渎了这个美好的人间,我不配做一个人了,也不配许舒和菁菁她们如此爱我!
我了一下头,心如死灰地道:“明白了小蕾,我没资格向你说对不起,但我会给你一个交待的。”说着我站了起来,沉重地向门口走去。
钱小蕾立刻离座挡在了门前,急叫道:“你去哪儿?”
我的脑中早已混乱,思维已经空白了。我想了一下,道:“去自首。”
钱小蕾怒了,叫道:“神经病!你自什么首?你一去,那这事天下人不都知道了?你要我一个女人,今后有什么脸去面对我的亲人和同事?”
我哭丧着脸,道:“可是……我做了这么禽兽不如的事,除了去自首接受法律制裁,我想不出还有什么办法来向你赎罪。我是个罪人。要不,你把我杀了罢!”
钱小蕾摇了摇头,道:“杀人?是要偿命的。你这是赎罪还是害我?事情做了就做了,麻烦你多为我这个受害人考虑一下好不好?我还要在这个世上生活下去的呢!”
我一片彷徨,顿时没了主意,道:“那……那我该怎么做?才能减轻我的罪孽?”
钱小蕾瞪着我,道:“我知道你心里特别懊悔,但你是酒后乱性,又不是故意的,要不然我早在四年前就报警抓你了。如果你非得要向我赎什么罪。那很简单,让我狠狠打你一巴掌,然后我们两清了。今后你就不必有什么负疚感,也不必老想着什么赎罪。这件事我们就当从来都没发生过,把它忘了,好吗?”
我木然地道:“一个巴掌,就能抵消了我所犯的罪孽?那国家还要警察干嘛?”
钱小蕾想笑笑不出来,只好道:“我说行就行!不然我还真杀了你?闭上眼睛。我可要报仇了!”
我痛苦地闭上了眼睛,叹道:“打罢,只要你能好过,打死我也没关系!”语音刚落,“啪”一声。我脸上重重吃了一记,顿时我眼冒金星,一阵头晕,然后觉得脸颊上一片火辣辣地巨痛,肌肤迅速肿了起来。
我一声苦笑,真没想到我这辈子会有一天被女人甩巴掌,而且甩得我心甘情愿,毫无脾气。
钱小蕾刚打完我,立刻伸出双手捧住了我的脸,心痛万分地道:“对不起,痛吗?我是为了打消你心里的犯罪感才打你的。我知道打得越重你越会好受些,好了,现在你已经不欠我什么了,从现在开始,我们把一切都忘了罢!”
你还别说,挨了这记耳光,我的心里的确好受多了。我看着如此宽宏大量的钱小蕾,心中有莫名的感激。我道:“小蕾,你真的不恨我吗?”
钱小蕾轻柔地抚摸着我挨打的地方,眼神中有说不出的温柔,她轻轻地道:“傻瓜,我从来没有恨过你,告诉你实情罢,那晚一开始是你强迫的,可后来是我自愿的。最多我们只能算有了一次一夜情,你不必觉得是在犯罪,而且你又是喝得烂醉,自己不知道自己在干什么。你只是以为我是华菁菁而已,和华菁菁发生关系,有什么好内疚的?”
我奇怪地道:“你自愿的?为什么?”
钱小蕾呆了一阵,把眼神投向了别处,幽幽地道:“那时候……我前夫在外面有了女人,被我发现了,我……那时产生了报复他的念头,而且自从我怀了孕后,因为各种各样的矛盾,我就没让他碰过我。我……我也是人,我也有需要的,所以……后来我就愿意了。唐迁,你真的别为此事负上内疚感,那只是一个美丽的错误而已。况且事情已经过去那么久了,发生也发生了,我们今天讲讲清楚,就把这个错误深埋在心里罢。以后你管你自己和华菁菁、许舒她们过快乐的曰子,我自己管自己过孤独的生活。我们还是老同学,好同事好吗?”
我又是感激,又是,道:“可是,我……”
钱小蕾又看向了我,伸出一根手指抵住了我的嘴唇,道:“我知道,你不用向我负什么责。我又不是黄花闺女了。也不会就赖上你。不过……”她说着轻轻扳下我的脑袋,温柔地吻上了我,呢喃道:“今晚除外好吗?唐迁……我好孤独……今晚留下来罢。”
看着这个曾与我有过肉体关系的女人,一时之间我真的没辙了。但我心中还是很清醒的,我知道,我不爱这个女人。我不会再犯那个美丽的错误了。
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