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雪白的屁股(一)

我一直都在怀念她——一位教了我很东西的老师,她叫方碧如。龙腾小说网ltxs520.com

那是个水深火热的年代,我还在南方的一个小山村里,那时候好象是1971年初,我只有十五岁,正是青春发育的时期,我在村里的中学上初一,那一年的春天,从城里来了几个下放的黑五类分子,其中就有方碧如老师,她的父亲是国民党的官员,解放战争时起义,她当时嫁给了解放军的一个团长,现在这个团长因为说了几句某位中央首长的坏话而被送进了监狱,再加上她那个国民党的父亲,她不可避免地下放到了我们这个偏僻的小山村。

当时她有四十多岁了,她的身体看上去很柔弱,村长是个好人,不让她下地干农活,她就做了我们的老师,所有的课都上,她是北大毕业的,足以应付我们这群山村的孩子了,这也正是为什么文革后我要考北大的原因。

她很漂亮,所有的人都这样认为,年青的时候肯定迷死很多人,虽然她已有四十岁的年纪,而且还是两个孩子的母亲,但是仍然是那么的动人,白晰的皮肤,典型的北方女子,尤其在我们这样的一个小山村里,她简直是个天使。

她喜欢我们,我们这群孩子也很喜欢她,小山村里,因为她的存在而显得生机勃勃,这和当时那些正在闹动乱的大城市相比,简直是天壤之别。我知道她很关心我,因为我是个特别的孩子,我不爱说话,但是成绩很好,我的母亲过世得早,父亲又病瘫在床上,我一边干活一边学习,成绩还总是全班第一,我第一眼见到她是就有一种很亲切的感觉,我不知道为什么。她看着我的眼神也有点心特别,好象曾经在哪见过我一样。

她看出了我的天份,也希望我们的小山村能出现一个大学生,要知道,我们村已经有近五十年没出过一个秀才了。所以她常常为我开小灶,到初二的时候,我参加初三班的考试,已经能拿前三名了。

“好样的,小明,南山村的希望就寄托在你身上了。你要为乡亲们争口气。”她常常这样对我说。我抬起头,看着她那张美丽而温柔的脸,我对未来充满了希望。

那一夜的事却改变了我的整个人生。

那是个闷热的仲夏夜,我家的一头猪跑到地里去了,我一个人忙乎了半天才把它赶了回来,天已经很晚了,我回来时刚好路过方碧如老师住的那个院子,四周静悄悄的,忽然一点细微的声音引起了我的好奇,我情不自禁地爬上泥墙,往院子里张望,只见那院子的一个角落里,一个人正蹲在地上小便,月光下,雪白的屁股隐约可见,再配上那细微的排尿声,我只觉得脑子一下就大了,心不由自主的狂跳,虽然院子里还住有另外两个女老师,但我总认为那就是方碧如老师,天啊,那个月光下雪白的就是她的屁股!我突然有了一种难言的冲动,我的裤裆一下就竖了起来,我的呼吸急促而汹涌,十五岁的我好象一下成熟了,农村里的孩子平时常看到驴啊马啊的交配,所以比城里孩子还要早熟,我死死地盯着那个雪白的东西看,生怕错过了一点,直到她消失在门里,我不知道那个是不是方碧如老师,但我总强迫自己去认为那就是方碧如老师,这样总让我有种莫名的满足感,我迷迷糊糊地回了家,那一夜,我遗精了,遗了很多。

第二天上课的时候,我一看到碧如老师就心跳加快,我不自觉地总想起月光下那个雪白的屁股,那个人就是她,那位尊贵而美丽的老师,她的裙子下就裹着那个迷人的屁股,我不敢再想,但又不由自主地要想,我多么渴望天天都能见到她,我甚至渴望能和她……

男孩的欲念一旦爆发,就无法收拾了,我开始失眠了,我几乎每天晚上都要跑到她的院墙上去窥探,那怕是刮风下雨,如果看到,我将渡过一个美妙的夜晚,而如果没看到,我将彻夜难眠,院墙上的窥视竟成了我生活中的一部份。当然,是要付出代价的,我的成绩一落千丈,上课时我总时打不起精神,我目不转睛地盯着老师那丰满的屁股看,脑海里总浮想连篇,根本听不进老师的讲课。方碧如老师也敏感地察觉到了。她找我谈过话,但我总是支支吾吾,于是她决定自己采取行动。

这天晚上,我又悄悄地来到了熟悉的院墙上,其实她已经从我离开家门的时候就开始跟着我了,可惜我太兴奋,没留意到,当我爬上泥墙时,她从黑暗中走了出来,我惊恐地望着她,她只是看着我,一言不发,我知道她一定很生气,她的眼神很复杂,我一点都读不懂,我可能愣了有一分钟,然后一扭头,飞也似地逃了。

第二天我没敢去上课,我跑到田野里,让谁也找不着我,直到晚上才回家,她就坐在我家里,可能等了很久了,我愣在门口,她走了出来,只是拍了拍我的头,柔声地说道:“小明,你要好好学习,不要想别的,你要为你爸妈争口气,为南山村争口气,你知道吗?你是个聪明的孩子,你会有出息的。明天一定要来上课,不要迟到。”说完,她微笑了一下,就走了。我的鼻子一下酸了。

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